Or bill actually.
Yep. I’m not proud. Totally forgot to pay the water bill. And let me just say that this is not the first time this has happened.
Let me also tell you a little something.
I am good at a few things:
running races, pushing a darn heavy stroller, experimenting in the kitchen, working out, teaching classes, laughing, grocery shopping, organizing the pantry, finding cheap wine, being goofy, procrastinating, sneaking in veggies, taking countless pictures of green food,
(recipe coming tomorrow for these amazing protein pancakes)
eating broccoli slaw
(Side note- Today I roasted it. I put in on a pan sprayed with nonstick spray then sprayed the top and sprinkled garlic powder, garlic salt, pepper and sea salt on top. Baked it in the convection oven at 375 for 10 minutes or so. It was awesome. I topped it with Trader Joe’s Organic Tomato and Roasted Red Pepper Soup and some goat cheese.)
oh, and well, getting distracted and talking about food (see previous long rant about my roasted broccoli slaw), putting things off until tomorrow, and “cleaning” my desk by clearing it into a box only to not look in the box for weeks (maybe that’s where my water bill is).
I am not good at:
prioritizing, remembering to clean the litter box, giving Kitty a bath when he really needs one (like right now), keeping all my finances and STUFT fitness book keeping together, anything to do with computers, remembering where I put things, keeping receipts, returning emails, tackling big projects, being on time for anything and making huge life decisions.
In just the past week I made a decision to not return to my full-time job as a PE teacher that I have been on leave of absence from since the boys were born. I had always thought I’d be a teacher forever. Somehow life happened. I just couldn’t go back after the boys. Now, I feel like things are leading me a different path.
I’m at a cross roads. I have a million different jobs each day, one of which is owning my own business. I’m working nonstop on one thing or another. However, none of my jobs are really raking in the dough. Somehow though we’re staying afloat.
To say that I’m scared and worried about the future is an understatement. Teaching was a secure job with benefits. Letting go of that is hard. I’m terrified. Every single day I question whether or not I’m making the right decision to not go back to teaching. Every. Single. Day.
On the flip side, I feel like I’m doing exactly what I’m supposed to be doing. Somewhere along the way I started my own business and got bit by the bug for making YouTube videos. More importantly, somewhere along the way I fell into this healthy living blogging community and found amazing friends like you.
Right now I’m not really doing the best that I can around the house or with just life in general. I need to take a step back for a bit and organize my thoughts, this blog, my bills, my closets, coupons, emails, finances, etc. (At least the pantry is organized. Ha.)
If I don’t get my act together soon this new truck of ours
just may have to be our one and only family vehicle.
(And yes, a fireplace brush cleans it up just marvelously.)
At least these guys don’t seemed worried.
I hope and pray that we can provide them with everything they need.
I also hope and pray that five years from now I can look back (with clean, organized closets) and know that I made the right decision for our family.
Heck, five years from now I want the boys and I to be on the freaking Ellen Show cooking and working it out with her. Now that’s just a little too big of a dream now isn’t it?
I know I’m never going to be caught up with life, (at least for the next 16 or so years), but I do want to get to a point where I’m not thinking about the future and wishing I’d done a better job at this whole personal business and blogging thing every day.
Thank goodness for STUFT Daddy, his amazing ability to deal with me, and all his hard work (he has a couple side jobs in addition to his lead bird keeper job too). I am one lucky mama.
Thanks for listening, or well, reading. I better go tackle my “boxes” now. Oops, wait, maybe I should pay that water bill first. Oh man.
There’s still time to enter the Chobani Champions giveaway. I may or may not have snuck one of the vanilla chocolate yogurts for my afternoon snack today.