This will be short. I don’t have a race recap yet, but just had to say a quick few things.
There’s been a lot of negative comments about my recent racing. I get that it’s confusing to read about someone who has an injury, feels better and then runs three back to back marathons in a row, but I’m also not the type of person who hides things. I’ve put too much out there and made myself vulnerable and that’s just how it is.
But, let me just say…….
Every runner is different. Everyone runs for different reasons.
I ran the races with approval from my doctors. Not just one, but all three of the specialists that I’ve been working with. Whatever I’m doing mechanically right now (running slower, taking smaller steps, cross training, etc.) is somehow helping my hip cooperate. It may not cooperate long term, but for now it’s working. It worked to let me have three amazing race experiences in a row and I cherish each and every one of them.
I am in no pain at the moment after those three races. However, I am NOT running this week and making rest and recovery my main priority.
I will never be an elite athlete and my days of running as many races as possible and running fast are behind me, but if my body feels good and wants to run and the doctors say it’s okay, well, I’m going to do it. I don’t know for sure if that running will be in a race or just a casual jog alongside my boys on their bikes. I do know that once my running days are over, whether that’s sooner or later, I’ll buy myself a bike instead.
I don’t know what the future holds, but I do know that over the past couple of months my priorities have changed. Life has changed. Goals have changed.
Running is a gift, but it’s not what life’s about. I’m so blessed that I was healthy enough to run these races, but I’m even more blessed to have the family, friends and faith that I do.
I don’t run to burn calories. I don’t run to try to lose weight. I don’t run to compete with others.
I run because it’s my passion. Running makes me a better person. Whether it’s 1 mile or 26, fast or slow, it completes me. I didn’t discover my passion for it until my mid thirties, but discovering it and having a few good years of living it out have been magnificent. I’ve persevered through some major ups and downs and I’m sure there are many more to come, but man it has been worth it.
Someday I won’t have the ability anymore and I’m prepared for that day to come. I’m prepared to have to find another “hobby” as Mom puts it.
But…….. today is not the day just yet.
I will not give up.
I will always dream big.
And if needed, I will press that little button that sends hurtful and judgmental comments to the “trash” as many times as I want.